Thursday, November 20, 2008

i've decided to use the symbol:


to replace "the blogosphere" in my writing.

i don't know exactly why it appeals to me so. i think i like the way the parenthases look. part of a greater sphere that we can't see. hinting at more unrevealed. kind of like... what you see isn't the whole story. there's more underneath.

plus i think it looks good as a symbol. to give this place, in my mind, more of a "whereness" about it. an authenticity about it. an identity, in my own mind. this crazy sewn together group of folks from all over the world. creating new paradigms and new cultures together that erase old boundaries. my head is really baking from overload on all of the infinite possibilities stretching out before us right now. and i need to do a little thing jimi hendrix used to talk about and "get my heart back together."

because as i look into the future as an individual and look at the world as it is now, i have to ask myself what kind of a world i want to be involved in. and as i feel the walls of corporate american commerce closing around me, trapping me in in the physical world, i am suddenly inspired to realize that with this "place", this (blog), i can stop shopping based on geographic convenience. i can talk with people and find out about great businesses i can support by purchasing what i need from them here. it could be across town, it could be across planet.

weird ideas like that. things that could have real potential at creating geunine alternative to popular modern society. in fact, i think if a group of folks from around the world tried, they could create their own global community supporting one another like that. hmmm. i don't know. just flickers. flashes.

sorry. i don't really know what to say. i just feel like i'm supposed to talk about this a tiny bit, as far as i understand it right now. (which is hardly at all)

then post this song:

then walk away.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

abode: infinite possibilities part 2.

but i think we also have an even greater level of infinite possibilities, in the form of real life moments, by bringing the two worlds together.

theme nights? movie nights? game nights? service days? days or nights where we consent to engaging in the same activity IRL. think of the impact and unifying spirit of people all over the globe intentionally sharing in the same experience with one another AND those around them. no matter how seemingly small or insignificant the moment is. this is how the physical community is formed.

example: a movie night. start by utilizing the Kitchen to throw out an idea and organize an evening. on "such and such a day" we set up to watch the same movie in our own respective neck of the woods. and then we invite friends over. ("hey, want to come over and watch a movie tonight?") or aquaintences. or strangers. whether 1 or 100. let people bring what they wish, and simply use the "intentional" part of the gathering (watching a movie) as a springboard for social interaction. then let the spirit be free to produce something wonderful utilizing what has been brought together. by just gathering together to party by watching a movie, nothing more.

i have noticed that it doesn't matter if the others come under my roof with this same intentionality. when it is held firmly in MY heart, and they come freely under my roof, the air is thick with warmth, love, intimacy, sharing, and above all safety to be who you are in this moment, no questions asked. just loved. it changes people. it really does. me included.

then after said night, we can come together again in THIS place to share experiences, pictures, whatever... god orchestrated moments to encourage one another of our true citizenship in this human drama.

then the next time you have a party, invite the same people. invite new people if you wish. allow your other guests the freedom to invite other people they know who would love to come along. then the next time after that, you have a history built up and people start to get what you've got going on. maybe not all of the deep, heady, theological implications of what is going on. but enough of an instinctual understanding to recognize that the parties seem to be better when everyone brings a little something to share to enhance the gathering. and the more familiar people get with one another, the deeper the relationships and conversations become.

think of the further implications. if we organzied "service days", we could impact different sections of the whole world at once and not just be limited to our own locale. and the more people we find online, the bigger this thing can get and more world-wide-spread.

look at all the links to others' blogs on the side of your own blog. click one. then look at all of the links on their blog. click another of theirs. see how many more. do it again. and again. and again. until you're in a neighborhood you've never been in before. if you find someone, let them know. "hey, there's something cool going on you might be interested in."

this thing is HUGE. i'm not saying that everyone will feel this stir within them. but i am saying that enough will, that it is worth the engaging. it is worth the intentionality. i know more people than not are wanting to know how to impact this world in a genuine and tangible way. we've just been waiting for encouragement and organization. i believe the orchestrator has now provided us with both.

let's get it on.

abode: infinite possibilities part 1.

(if you are willing to put in a little more time, this clip is an excellent appetizer. if you are able, see it with your new eyes, and hear it with your new ears.)

it started just after i quit being a GM and became a "just a driver." the store i transferred to, being run by one of my best friends, was in the suburb to the farthest eastern most point of the meto area. as such, in getting there from where i live, the point i get on the freeway means i have to cross 3 lanes of traffic in about one mile to reach the left exit to the next freeway which then brings me out to work. a mile is no problem except for the fact that when you're traveling at 65-70MPH it gives you less than a minute to do so. i HATE freeway driving. it is so fast paced and aggressive it completely goes against my inner nature. let's just say i'm not a fan.

now i know that the whole "parking spot" view of god is highly mocked. but when this became my morning routine, i noticed something interesting happening. every day when i got on the freeway, there was an opening at the exact moment i entered that enabled me to cross all lanes of traffic smoothly at the exact speed i was traveling. cool enough. but this has happened 99% of the days that i have worked at this store. for 3 years. you might still think this is some random interesting coincidence, but the more i think about it, the more it has baked my brain.

i mean, EVERY DAY. i realized that for this moment to occur every day, that all the things that happen to me that morning, sometimes even the night before, affect what time i reach that opening every morning. but there it is. at just the right time. every day.

over time the vision and understanding grew bigger and deeper. the guy who cut me off and drove slow in front of me on the ramp. stopping to mail something off for my mom that she forgot. the timing of the stoplights that i hit. EVERY CAR THAT IS ON THE FREEWAY AT THAT MOMENT AND EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED TO THEM THAT MORNING AND ON THEIR WAY TO WORK. did they argue with their spouse and leave a little late? did they take an extra 15 seconds at a stop sign to let someone else into traffic? ALL of these things, every day, coming together in this one seemingly insignificant moment. insignificant except for one thing.

i notice. every day i notice.

now... having said all of this, what does this have to do with WHAT NEXT?
it has increased my faith a hundredfold. not that god does this every day, but that he is able to contain all these myriad of free choices and weave them together to accomplish this every day. let me restate that this way...

my faith does not rest on the fact that god DOES it every day, but rather the simple fact that god is ABLE to do it. that he can coordinate such things in the moment. which, yes, brings about a brand new paradigm of viewing the world through the lens of "what's happening now." rather than feeling like you need to strive to run around and find "what next" as though you might miss it, it is a simple engaging in the moment, as you said sue, and being open to/flowing in what god has orchestrated.

OK! so all of that to now say that i believe we have been orchestrated. every person here, every voice. every circumstance that has brought us here. every conversation had, and relationship formed, and every personality type, and every talent brought to play this symphony of life in this moment. every person a beautiful instrument finely tuned for just this time in the neverending story as it keeps on rolling along.

there was a brief period of time when i would invite people over for a party and then come "here" to talk about it. to remind myself, and everyone else, that this is the balance that i saw in the earliest gatherings in the book of acts. it seemed to me that these people viewed their newfround freedom and faith as something to celebrate! so they would get together every evening and party together. "breaking bread from house to house." because that's what people did then when they got together to party back then. and the parties were so sweet that they would go out the next morning. and as they went about their daily duties, they would tell people, "hey, we're getting together tonight at a friend's house for dinner. i would LOVE it if you would come!" then those people would come and experience for themselves. and come back again. and in coming back, bring their friends. and so on and so on, it GREW.

i think that we could do this same thing now, encouraging one another across the globe. i see the strange circumstances that brought us all to this place, and i see the potentialities now available to us in the Kitchen.

check it. in my mind's eye i see the Kicthen as a "hub." a centralized place of gathering in this (blog) world for people to share needs, hugs, encouragement, songs, tears, joy, laughter, whatever... a constant affirmation that we are a different people and that it is okay. it is who we are meant to be.

a place where people can also find others with whom they really connect with, and have their own relationships and discussions on various personal pages and "rooms." a place where people can be found, invited, welcomed, and "plugged in" in a reasonably simple fashion. (however they are comfortable doing this, NO EXPECTATIONS!!!)

to be continued...

Monday, November 10, 2008

for your perusal.

here are the posts i have been able to whittle it down to. i'm trying hard to leave out ones i feel are somewhat extraneous, and not have too many here. because i actually would like you to read them and take them in if you're interested in the discussion. to give you a good idea of where my thoughts are at now, and how they got there, before i try to sort out a post of where i think we're at, and where i think we could head.

instead of titles, i'm going with dates.

August 10th, 2005
October 8th, 2005
December 19th, 2005
January 4th, 2006
Febrauary 28th, 2006
March 5th, 2006
April 8th, 2006
March 17th, 2007
July 12th, 2007
August 14th, 2007
June 17th, 2008
July 9th, 2008
July 17th, 2008
August 1st, 2008
August 6th, 2008
September 6th, 2008

Monday, November 03, 2008

who's with me?

it seems strange to revisit it now. to go back and look at the scant outline of thoughts brewing for over 3 years. moreso, being brought to the front burner for over 4 months now. i guess i'm not sure what to say, or that if i DO find out what to say, the implications and responsibilities frighten me. but after reading heather's posts on the subject recently, and knowing i am not alone in being tapped about this, i think now is the time to overlook fears and simply dive off the cliff once again, not knowing where we will land. i apologize for not speaking more forthrightly or openly about this until now. forgive me my silence.

for so long i have wanted a practical faith. a faith that was more than simply an amalgamation of words memorized and beliefs defined by another. not saying there is anything inherently wrong with being taught by another. at some point however, i just wanted something mroe than that. something i could call my own. more than just in the sense of intellectual beliefs held from systematizing scriptures into doctrinal structures that we believe "should work" when followed "in just this manner." the problem with that is more often than not these structures didn't work. but to acknowledge that was to simply ask for guilt and emotional pain in being told that the problem lie with me and not the structure built from "god's inerrant and authoritative word". but that's all water under the bridge now. that time in my life is past.

in the present, i find myself as a part of another group of people who love to talk. and that's wonderful. don't get me wrong, i love the transparency, vulnerability, openness, love, grace, and acceptance i find in this place, and that we share with one another as we hash out long held questions and crises of faith. in fact i believe it is good for us to talk about these things. but i don't want to be a part of another group that is all talk. the desire in my heart is to be part of a group whose faith continues to move outward into the world in practical ways.

i think it is extrememly signifigant that through whatever set of circumstances brought us here, we have now found each other. if it is just coincidence, it is one amazing set of coincidences that has brought us together. we live in an age where man can now talk openly all over the world and understand one another again. overriding the curse in genesis placed on humans at the tower of babel. according to the story, the curse was placed on humans because of what they were trying to accomplish. and when humans can completely communicate with each other, "nothing which they purpose to do will be impossible for them." (gen.11:6)

i think we can now take advantage of this. i think we can do something about the crisis of paradigm in the world in which we live. i believe we can work together to begin to reach out to our world in global ways unprecedented in all of human history up until now. i not only believe it is possible, i believe it is why i am here.

i honestly don't know where this ends but it feels right to me. as if this is what i was created for. it is strange and frightening not knowing where i am going. only seeing one step at a time. and some days/weeks/months/years just sitting at a red light, waiting for it to change to green. (thanks, happy.)

i know i'm not alone in this. i know i am not the only one the spirit is speaking these things to. and i think now, finally, it is time to begin speaking of such things and bringing our puzzle pieces we have been given together. our small loaves and fishes, if you will.

i have no idea where this is going to lead, because it is not me who's putting it together. if this doesn't resonate with you, or you haven't felt god's spirit moving these things in you, then this isn't for you. don't feel bad about it. but if you HAVE felt these stirrings in your spirit, sometimes for years, and are just now feeling them grow stronger, are still confused about it like me, but feel it has something to do with the people you've met online in the past few years, let's start the conversation. let's start trying to "put the pieces together" and find out where to go from here, together, with the spirit at the forefront.

i'm not exactly sure what has begun, but i'm committed to what's begun. as far as god wills it, and desires for me to be with you, you can count on me. i'm in it all the way.

who's with me?

Sunday, November 02, 2008


"The bonding of mother and child is a miraculous outpouring of unobstructed love channeled through the mortal coil. Nursing is the physical bond of nourishment. Mother is the first meal, the key to life. Bio-electromagnetic and psycho-spiritual bonds bring mother and child together."