Monday, September 29, 2008

for shits and giggles

still having a toddler, who is still into everything, makes it tough to find the time for serious posting. hence the youtube fetish recently. which is not going to end today. but instead of music or heady film i decided to drop in a few of my favorite things for your viewing pleasure. i have been a stand-up comedy fanatic for over 20 years now. here is just a small sampling of my favorites. obviously there is more than a single visit's worth of watching here, but you'll have time to come back, if you so desire, before i move on. i'm taking the better part of the next two weeks off from my own blog to do mucho familia engagements as well as work. hopefully you find something to brighten your day and make you spit all over you screen! (extra points if you fall off your chair)


Brian Regan
















Louis CK















Flight Of The Conchords











Friday, September 26, 2008

Rahab's Kitchen



i'm not too sure what to say about this as i'm curious what it is going to grow into. but there is a new space, Rahab's Kitchen. i see it as the potential of a great gathering of people in n out just stopping by to say hello, vent over frustrating days and talk about more "real life" stuff than our regular religious deconstruction and theologizing. and that's for us veterans.

i also see the potential of a place of rest and healing and gentle encouragement for those young in their deconstruction. and perhaps we can help them to come out with fewer scars than those of us who did not have such a space in our early days.

but whatever it is to become, it will not be complete until YOU come over. so join us for a spell, won't you? it is open invite. you can come. anyone you want to invite can come. and if you have anything you would like to share, or would like to be made a permanent contributor, just let me know. then i'll have to figure out how to do something like that...

much love

i'm sorry, i just couldn't help myself.

honestly, other than the mellow morning CD's i play for the kids during our morning routine, i have been listening to nothing else all week. it has produced the strangest reaction in me. pure and utter excitement. for some reason, i want to drive down the street, album blaring, honking my horn and shouting, "they're back! they're really back! kill the fattened calf, our prodigals have returned home!"

i know metallica has been making albums slowly for the past 20 years, but none of them has even come close to measuring up to why i LOVED this band when i was in junior high and high school. they were the first genuine metal band(i.e. NOT "hair metal") that i heard and i fell in love instantly. their album ...and justice for all is one of my top 10 of all time. it came out in 1988. i have been waiting for a follow-up since then. it is finally here. and so i just had to share something. anything. so i thought i'd go with this one as i'm sure more than a couple of you out there could relate.

believe it or not, this is the second shortest song on the album.



BROKEN, BEAT, AND SCARRED





You Rise You Fall
You're Down Then You Rise Again
What Don’t Kill You Will Make You More Strong
You Rise You Fall
You're Down Then You Rise Again
What Don’t Kill You Will Make You More Strong
Rise Fall Down Rise Again
What Don’t Kill You Will Make You More Strong
Rise Fall Down Rise Again
What Don’t Kill You Will Make You More Strong
Through Black Days
Through Black Nights
Through Pitch Black Insides

Breaking Your Teeth On The Hard Life Coming
Show Your Scars
Cutting Your Feet On the Hard Earth Running
Show Your Scars
Breaking Your Life
Broken, Beat & Scarred
We Die Hard

The Dawn The Death
The Fight to the Final Breath
What Don’t Kill You Will Make You More Strong
The Dawn The Death
The Fight to the Final Breath
What Don’t Kill You Will Make You More Strong
Dawn Death Fight Final Breath
What Don’t Kill You Will Make You More Strong
Dawn Death Fight Final Breath
What Don’t Kill You Will Make You More Strong
They Scratched Me
They Scraped Me
They Cut and Rape Me

Breaking Your Teeth On The Hard Life Coming
Show Your Scars
Cutting Your Feet On the Hard Earth Running
Show Your Scars
Breaking Your Life
Broken, Beat & Scarred
We Die Hard

Breaking Your Teeth On The Hard Life Coming
Show Your Scars
Cutting Your Feet On the Hard Earth Running
Show Your Scars
Bleeding Your Life In A Hard Luck Story
Show Your Scars
Spilling Your Blood In the Hot Sun's Glory
Show Your Scars

Breaking Your Life
Broken, Beat & Scarred
We Die Hard

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

hi.




this is me. this is what i look like when i take a picture of myself blogging and listening to metallica's new album. the kids are in bed. the wife is engrossed is one of her favorite movies. the store i work for is closed. this is how it is most days for me when i enter this space. i am pure bliss. often mrs. peres will tap me and ask me what i'm giggling about as i'm typing furiously, completely oblivious to the fact i'm doing it.

so i might rant, and i might rave, and i might shout for joy, or scream with frustrated rage. i might make light of the holy and praise the profane. but if you can handle it, then know that no matter what you share, it's all good from here. Always. you don't ever need to worry about "where is jON's heart at?" i know you're good people and i trust you. share whatever you feel without apology here. you've more than earned my trust and respect.

much love.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

can i get an amen? holla!

this one's for the sistas

from mrs. peres



Wednesday, September 17, 2008

hands down the best existential rant about american politics i've ever heard given in only two minutes

ultimately this is the clip from waking life that i wanted to share. i just got distracted because when i went looking for it i realized they had the whole movie on youtube cut up into the various scenes, so i shared a couple of other faves along the way. i'm not sure if you've ever seen the film, but it is one of my favorites. very revolutionary at the time, it was shot entirely on digital film and then each frame was "painted over" so that it looks like living animation. each scene has a different theme and feel to it. plus it gives greater freedom for interesting things to happen. (i.e. someone is talking and their mouth starts sliding to the left or their eyes shift around their face or something just wanders through the background that wasn't in the original shot.)

this movie is well worth the viewing if you think watching people talk about existential philosophy is fun. i do. the movie isn't about politics as much as it is about our concepts of reality and the way in which we conduct our lives as human beings on a daily basis. and of course, politics happens to be one of the ways in which we conduct our daily business so it gets touched on.

if you're sick of american politics, if you think the debates between the two sides are silly because it is the whole system that is flawed and not just the party in charge, then this rant is for you. enjoy.


Saturday, September 06, 2008

greater things than these: the post






it was a little fuzzy at first. but then, it started coming in a little clearer. able to feed a crowd with naught but a few fish and some bread. able to heal an entire village in a single afternoon. able to cast out the dark demons that hold people prisoner. able to be whisked away from a place in the blink of an eye. able to raise a person from the dead.

this is the picture i got about a week ago. it suddenly clicked into place. and then it made me wonder, why doesn't this happen more frequently? why do we not live as heroes? not to blame us, or induce guilt with this age old question, but... is our faith really so weak?

for those true skeptics among us, who question the authenticity of the supernatural occurances and have a preference for more "natural" explanations, that is not the bent of this post. i have already heard true account, witnessed, and experienced too much true supernatural occurance to believe those explanations. if you have not, i am sorry. but your non-experience does not counteract my experience in this case. so i am starting from the place that these occurances happened in real time and space and were recorded for us faithfully and accurately.

my grandfather had a moment once, when my mother was still a child living at home, when they were very poor, and people strangely kept showing up at the home asking to share in their meal. all they had was one small bowl of noodles for their own family, but as each person came, they offered what they had and after something ridiculous like 13 people who "just happened" to stop by, the bowl was still not empty. true story. this happened in real time and space.

my father was planning suicide at age 18. he was driving his car towards a tree on the outskirts of the small town he lived in. the last thing he remembers seeing is the speedometer buried at 120 and closing his eyes seconds before impact only to open them and find himself in the middle of town at a red light. true story. this happened in real time and space.

from what i gather, according to the biblical accounts, we should be able to provide for a person's health. to keep them alive. food and healing. we should have mastery over the elements, or at the very least, water. walking on it. stopping it from falling from the sky. turning it into wine. this is just a short list, but when grouped together, i get a very different picture of those who "walk in the spirit" on a moment to moment basis from what has classically been taught.

where is the disconnect? what happened between then and now? jesus said that among this small list of things he did, we would also be able to do. but he also said that we would be able to do even greater things than these, because he was going to the father. well, he's now with the father. and i think, the question he put forth by jesus, "...when the Son of Man comes, will He find faith on the earth?” resounds even more heavily today than it did back then.

recently, lorena commented at towards truth "Unfortunately, what Jesus supposedly did, his followers can't reproduce..." how true that statement is. but i don't think it is because it can't be done. i just think we don't know how. we haven't practiced. we don't have the faith. and real faith can make things that are not reality, reality. need an everyday example? take walking up the stairs in the dark. when you lose count, can't see that you're already on top, and take another step that is full of faith and expectation that there is another step, you take a step and slam your foot down on the floor in a manner that you cannot reproduce naturally. try it. no matter how many times you try to convince yourself there is a step and recreate the sensation, you can't do it because you don't truly believe. you don't have faith.

but at the same time, how are we to have faith? how can we believe in something we've never seen? i think it's fair to say we've never seen anyone walk on water. or feed and heal a village. so how do we have faith enough to accomplish these things? can we call them "abilities"? how do we have faith in these abilities, or "gifts", if we have no mentors or training grounds?

i mean, even if you've ever had the inkling twitch in you, no matter how small, to try to heal someone, have you ever actually given it a shot and walked up to someone in a wheel chair, grabbed their hand, pulled and said, "walk!" ? and did this with FULL CONFIDENCE AND EXPECTATION that it would happen? because i think that's the key element. especially for the big things. that's why, in my opinion, jesus clears the room before he raises the little girl from the dead. he needed the doubt out of the room so it could be filled with faith doing its work.

so what are the practical applications? where are the teachers and mentors? where are the training grounds? what are the "greater things than these" that were promised? how does this fit together with who we are? how does one discover these abilities and grow in them? and how does it affect you as you learn?

is anyone willing to be vulnerable and share experiences or say that they, at the very least, think they may have an ability so we might begin discussion towards a practical fulfillment? because i know i have abilities. and i would like to talk about it, with the hope of coming towards an understanding of practical application.

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

in the sun

this is another song from my "epitaph." in terms of the story, i have been completely demoralized, confused, emotionally and spiritually beaten and abused, betrayed, bewildered... you name, i was in it deep. the darkest time of my life. that's where act I ends.

this is the first song on the 2nd CD. the beginning of act II. i hope you enjoy yet another song. i don't know about you, but if it catches me in the right mood, it makes me cry for obvious reasons. this one just hits too close to home. but in a good, healthy, and restorative way. to have a voice to hold me in that moment and offer comfort.




I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you

I know i would apologize if i could see your eyes
'Cause when you showed me myself i became someone else
But i was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You can't keep awake

May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you

'Cause if i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
If i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
You

I don't know anymore
What it's for
I'm not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
'Cause i been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe you're not even sure what it's for
Any more than me

May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you

Tuesday, September 02, 2008