"The Matrix is a system, Neo. That system is our enemy. But when you're inside, you look around, what do you see? Businessmen, teachers, lawyers, carpenters. The very minds of the people we are trying to save. But until we do, these people are still a part of that system and that makes them our enemy. You have to understand, most of these people are not ready to be unplugged. And many of them are so inured, so hopelessly dependent on the system, that they will fight to protect it."
in a desire to see things move from the cerebral to the actual, i propose to you something that was proposed to me by the spirit about 2 years ago. i call them "heart exercises." you may find them useful, you may not. but, at the very least, i think they are worth giving a whirl.
i had been agonizing over having a faith that, when followed, made me into a grade A asshole. very much an "us&them" style of faith, which of course had its results in the way i looked at and treated other people. i'm not proud, it just is what it is. one day, however, as my beliefs about the cross changed and i began to see it as something much more wide open and accepting, god spoke to my heart, unexpectedly, in line at the grocery store.
"if you truly believe that my son's blood is for everyone, and that all are now brothers and sisters at this moment, though some unaware, then i want you to focus all of your energy on the person in front of you. first break through the invisible wall that you place in your mind to keep others out. really notice that person standing here with you in this place in real time and space and realize there is no wall between you. next, i want you to allow your heart to experience what it would experience if this was your brother or sister or a really good friend that you had not seen for awhile. then, when experienced, hold that person in your heart and imagine how you would speak to them, if they were indeed a long lost someone. would there be burgeoning excitement? perhaps hugs? smiles? a brightness to your eyes? an excitement that might be hard to contain? try it."
i did, and i found myself surprised at how quickly my heart was able to open up and make room for this "stranger." as i began to practice this more and more and found myself able to open my heart easily and fil with warmth and love for someone i never met, essentially removing my fear of someone i didn't know, the spirit then asked me to open my mouth. not to that person, but when my heart was filled with that openness and acceptance and love, to then turn that towards the cashier and strike up a conversation about anything but with this emotive and spiritual force behind it. it was literally amazing to hear the things that would come out of my mouth naturally and the smiles that these people would offer up as someone reahced across the fake lines of treating them as slaves, or even worse, machines, or worse still, invisible. to recognize them as human and give them a little human interaction.
the final step in these preliminary exercises was to then, while standing in line, tear down my wall entirely and begin to fell with my heart and spirit the entirety of the store and realize there are no walls between aisles, we're all together in a wide open room with shelving, but really, this is a place filled with many humans who need and deserve the same kind of love and acceptance. and then, to hold everyone in the building in my heart in the same fashion.
as a result, i have learned how to look anyone in the eye without fear and connect with them at a heart level. from the shyest person to the "hardest-pipe-hitting-brother" i have been able to learn how to cut through people's masks and see them where they live inside.
if this at all sounds interesting to you, i would be interested to hear of your experiences if you give it a shot. remember, step one requires nothing of you but an open heart. no words, no encounters, no pressure. just an open heart waiting to be found.
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