Tuesday, July 11, 2006


for some reason i've been reconnecting with my metal roots as of late. one thing i've come to learn about myself is that i'm a metalhead. always have been, always will be. does this mean i'm a fan of every form of metal i hear? no. but i respect them all. damn talented musicians, mostly. and deep. some of the most unflinching and thoughtful lyrics you will ever hear come from the mouths of the metalmen. it was nine inch nails' latest album with teeth that helped to rekindle the fire this past spring. then, as the snow began melting and i could drive around and deliver with my windows rolled down, i was struck with the irresistable call to hear something loud and intense. listening to the radio has brought me tool. and we all know pearl jam put out their new album. not to mention seeing pearl jam open for tom petty and the heartbreakers. it's been a great summer so far.

something about metal just resonates so deep inside me. not just metal, though. but a spirit that has been embodied by rock and roll all along. this subversive thing that just refuses to be killed. everytime the system grabs ahold of it and thinks it has killed it, it comes back in a different form. shocking us. apalling us. calling us to new realities and lives. reminding us of the wonderful gift of life we have been given and the potential that lies in living it to the fullest. whether good or bad. experiencing what life has to offer. and reasearching the roots of metal in black sabbath's first album and going forward has me interested in hearing and experiencing a lot of new music, which is actually old music.

really been getting into ac/dc lately. (were you there firsthand, susan? was ac/dc-mania everything in austrailia in the 70's that i have been lead to believe?) now i'm VERY interested in hearing black sabbath's first album. i mean, i've heard the greatest hits, but not the first album as a whole. and this book i'm reading has judas priest sounding as if i would enjoy hearing their formative years. never really given judas priest much thought before. huh.

a little burned out on this whole scriptural thing, i've started looking into other things. it started on wikipedia. i'm don't quite remember how i ended up there. but i found myself researching anton lavey. this lead me to aleister crowley. which in turn lead me to thelema. and i found myself coming across a quote that seemed to me to embody something that resonates deep within me. like metal. this thing that has been lurking under the surface trying desperately to get my attention.

"All their life was spent not in laws, statutes, or rules, but according to their own free will and pleasure. They rose out of their beds when they thought good; they did eat, drink, labour, sleep, when they had a mind to it and were disposed for it. None did awake them, none did offer to constrain them to eat, drink, nor to do any other thing; for so had Gargantua established it. In all their rule and strictest tie of their order there was but this one clause to be observed,
Do What Thou Wilt;
because men that are free, well-born, well-bred, and conversant in honest companies, have naturally an instinct and spur that prompteth them unto virtuous actions, and withdraws them from vice, which is called honour. Those same men, when by base subjection and constraint they are brought under and kept down, turn aside from that noble disposition by which they formerly were inclined to virtue, to shake off and break that bond of servitude wherein they are so tyrannously enslaved; for it is agreeable with the nature of man to long after things forbidden and to desire what is denied us."

and so we get marilyn manson.

rom 7:9-10

more than enough for now, i'm sure.

but there's more...


much love.


Susan said...

Yes, it's true, I was a teenager in the 70's but I'm sad to say that I was completely oblivious to ac/dc mania.

I grew up listening to my parent's choice in music - Glen Campbell, Nat King Cole, Burt Bacharach ...

Susan said...

Just been speaking to my brother apparently ac/dc was huge. Got banned in some places for being too loud.

Don't know where I was probably had my head stuck in a book :)

Wendy ftfs said...

LOL weirdness ... it's just music, Jon. People's thoughts and ideas set to music like any book ... what are you all wound up about?

Nothing here compares to the glory God ....


jON said...

sorry. didn't mean to sound wound up. i was actually quite calm and relaxed when i wrote this post.

Wendy ftfs said...

:-) Music, like everything else is a part of our lives. But God is all encompassing ... He IS our life and the only reason we have life...

He doesn't tell us to do as we will... he says to love one another as He has loved us ... to do even greater things than He has done ...

I don't see anyone doing the things that He has left for us. Not in my neighbourhood anyway.

I just learned about some guy running around with gold dust all over him ... and prayer meetings where people are finding jewels on the floor ????? THIS is the biggest news today? Not that the blind see the lame walk and the dead are raised to life? Just jewels and gold dust... I'd like to see this fly in an AIDS infested neighbourhood in Africa.

Sorry Jon... I'm just not very happy at the moment with our state of affairs as Christians... It is the end times, we need to stay close and hear His voice like never before.

Wendy ftfs said...

Are you going to post a pic of your new van in Zaavan ?

Like to see it


vin-vin said...





We're all glad you're alive.

Dee said...

I loved ac/dc and some of the other bands but I cannot say I was a fanatic.

I find that I am more interested in the old time gospel music. I listen to all kinds but that seems to soothe me.

Those are the songs my mom and foster mom both listened too.

Dee said...

Hey if you all start another bible study group let me know. I have been out of the loop for a time but I would so love to have one going again.

Susan said...

Hey Dee,
Why don't you start a Bible study group and we could all come over to your blog?

Well, I know I would.

Heather said...

'The Almost Impossible Thing'

"The terrible thing, the almost impossible thing, is to hand over your whole self - all your wishes and precautions - to Christ. But it is far easier than what we are trying to do instead. For what we are trying to do is to remain what we call "ourselves," to keep personal happiness as our great aim in life, and yet at the same time do 'good.' We are all trying to let our mind and heart go their own way - centered on money or pleasure or ambition - and hoping, in spite of this, to behave honestly and chastely and humbly.

And that is exactly what Christ warned us you could not do. As He said, a thistle cannot produce figs. If I am a field that contains nothing but grass-seed, I cannot produce wheat. Cutting the grass may keep it short: but I shall still produce grass and no wheat. If I want to produce wheat, the change must go deeper than the surface. I must be ploughed up and resown.....

He never talked vague, idealistic gas. When He said, "Be perfect," He meant it. He meant that we must go in for the full treatment. It is hard; but the sort of compromise we all are hankering after is harder - in fact, it is impossible. It may be hard for an egg to turn into a bird: but it would be a jolly sight harder for it to learn to fly while remaining an egg. We are like eggs at present. And you cannot go on indefinitely being just an ordinary, decent egg. We must be hatched or go bad."

C.S. Lewis (1898-1963)

jON said...

still living and adventuring. nothing to share just yet. enjoy the rest of your summers.

you'll see me again, willie.

jON said...

wow. i just checked my sitemeter stats for the first time in weeks! it's so tounching to know that you guys still come around here so much to see if i'm around. thank you for your love and concern. it is not wasted, i assure you. keep praying for us that god's will be done in our lives in this trying trasitional time. thanks.

wide open, jON